On Bridges And The Crocodiles Underneath

A friend recently said, "The hardest thing to learn in life is knowing which bridges to cross and which to burn". To some extent I would have to agree, but I think there are cases where we've known all along. What's actually difficult is deciding to actually burn them because somehow we always still hope that maybe down the road, things will change. Or that maybe we ourselves can somehow change so that we can safely cross that bridge without falling of and breaking our necks. In the end, I guess the only thing we should ask ourselves is, "Is it worth it?" and can we live with ourselves if it turned out not to be instead. This is what I'm trying to figure out as I myself am considering letting go of a few.

Am I making sense at all? And what's with the crocodiles, you say? Well, if you're good and burn the right ones, that's what you'll find underneath. ;)

Old and Gray

My Adidas sneakers are now old and gray, and I've been meaning to buy a new pair for some time now. Every time I go to some mall, though, I end up not buying any, either because I didn't like any of the designs or those I did like were way too expensive. And admittedly, my sneakers may be tattered and worn out, but they fit me perfectly and are just so comfy. So it was such a nice surprise that I finally found a pair I liked on sale today at 20% discount.

Don't get me wrong though, I'm still keeping my old worn out sneakers even though I'm now loving my new pair to bits. (Did I just say 'love to bits'?!?! I'm watching way too many chick flicks) I won't wear them as often, and most probably they'll just gather dust at the back of my closet. But maybe there would be times when I'd long for the familiar comfort of that old pair and take them out for a walk. :)

Yes, I'm weird. I thought of all that while waiting for my turn at the cashier. Oh, and I bought a pair for Marvin, too. We have matching sneakers again. :D

On the way home, I thought that Marvin and I have that same kind of relationship. It may be tattered and worn out by all the misunderstandings and differences, but it's comfortable, familiar, and fit our lives in the most weirdly perfect way. Sure, we look at other men/women, look for something new, but I guess I at least am still in that stage that, sure there are better men, but none are special enough, none at least as special as what I see in Marvin. As Marvin always says, "I may see other girls, but love like ours, well it will take a long time to find it again."

But I also know that like finding that perfect pair of sneakers, there will come a time when we would both find that special someone that would make us long for that something new. We would learn to love them, but like that old pair of sneakers, our love will always be a wonderful memory kept in an equally special closet in our minds and in our hearts. And hopefully, when we're old and gray and close to the end of our journey, we'd remember its familiar and warm comfort. =)

** It feels good to be writing again. I think it's because I'm in a programming lull. You can't be logical and emotional at the same time. ;)

2009 Birthday Wishlist

Just some items I'm thinking about getting myself for my birthday, guilt-free.
(Images were taken from the Amazon website.)

1. Martha Stewart's Baking Handbook & Martha Stewart's Cooking School

I just love cooking and baking! And I used to watch Martha Stewart and other Lifestyle network shows when I was in the Philippines. I admit that I'm still not that good a chef, and I still haven't used the oven I got from Lisa that much, but I really want to learn. It's a good outlet for my err, not sure if you can call it creativity, so let's just call it my "urge to make nice and delicious things". Haha! Oh and by the way, thanks Marvin for being my number one (and only?) fan and critic. (o^_^o) And also for being so patient with all my burnt cupcakes, soggy cookies, and "Did the lid come off the salt and pepper shaker again?!?" meals. (o^_^o)


2. Lowepro camera bag

It's annoying that whenever I take my DSLR with me, I have to use this big backpack and just throw in all my stuff in there. It's especially frustrating when I'm on an out of town trip since when I need my extra battery, or a memory card or a lens, I have to rummage through clothes and toiletries hehehe! I didn't want anything fancy, I just want my photography stuff organized when I go out, so I think this bag will be quite enough for me.


3. The Digital Photography Book, Volume 3

I loved the first two volumes and I'm curious what Scott Kelby has put together for Volume 3. I just wish that "extra time" also comes with the package because with all the things I'm juggling - cooking, baking, reading, studying, photography - it's difficult to find time to actually apply the things I learn in his books. Oops, I forgot "working". Haha!


4. Pots and Pans

It's funny that after all this time, I've never owned a proper set of pots and pans. I've managed before, but now that I'm cooking a lot again, it's getting to be a bother.


5. Richard Poon's Autographed CD

Icel, a friend who works in ABS-CBN Japan, already promised me this one, right Icel? Haha walang pakialamanan! I love his voice! And okay fine, I also find him cute. Most of my friends don't really find him cute, but I usually go for the mestizo-chinito, clean cut, goody-goody, "someone you can introduce to Mom" type and he fits the bill. =D

I saw him sing live early this year, thanks to tickets from Icel. I was on the second row! When he got down from the stage to meet the audience, I had to restrain myself from shrieking like a teenage girl and asking for a cam pic together. Good thing Malen was there haha! And hey, he was so close to our seat that I could actually reach out and hug him hahaha! *cringe* Sorry! =D

Prayer Request

I would like to request for all of you to include in your prayers my dear friend's mom's fast recovery.

My dear sister and friend, just always remember that I love you so much.